To Be Honest, by Maggie Ann Martin
Release: August 21, 2018
Genres: Young Adult, Contemporary
Publisher: Swoon Reads
Synopsis via Goodreads: Savannah is dreading being home alone with her overbearing mother after her sister goes off to college. But if she can just get through senior year, she’ll be able to escape to college, too. What she doesn’t count on is that her mother’s obsession with weight has only grown deeper since her appearance on an extreme weight-loss show, and now Savvy’s mom is pressuring her even harder to be constantly mindful of what she eats.
Between her mom’s diet-helicoptering, missing her sister, and worrying about her collegiate future, Savvy has enough to worry about. And then she meets George, the cute new kid at school who has insecurities of his own. As Savvy and George grow closer, they help each other discover how to live in the moment and enjoy the here and now before it disappears.
“All right, now it’s time for the three-legged race. We’re going to go in waves of five and do it bracket style. Come to me to grab your team’s rope and get prepared,” Mrs. M said.
Grace sat on the ground, joining her leg with one of her younger cousins. I suddenly felt self-conscious about the short shorts I chose to wear over my swimsuit. Imagining my jiggiling thigh having to be tied up to a stranger’s was my version of a nightmare. Would he notice the stretch marks that striped down my inner thighs? Would he be disgusted by me when he saw them?
It suddenly felt like all of the air had been pushed out of my lungs. I swayed on my feet as the ringing in my ears began. No matter how many panic attacks I had, my body always believed that it was dying. My body told me that I couldn’t catch my breath, that I was going to actually die in Sandcastle Park in my polka dotted swimsuit before I even got to eat lunch.
I plopped onto the ground and put my head between my legs, trying to catch my breath again. George’s voice played over the pounding of my heart and the ringing in my ears, but I couldn’t understand what he was saying. I squinted my eyes closed in an effort to make everything stop. My body didn’t listen.”
About the Author
Maggie Ann Martin hails from Des Moines, Iowa but moonlights as a New Yorker. She has a shiny new BA in English and Journalism from the University of Iowa, the most welcoming literary community in the world. When she is not writing, you can find her binge watching TV shows or passionately fangirling over fictional characters on the Internet. The Big F is her debut novel.